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So you say I need to back away? Away from what? And Why? Why can’t I do what I need to do? Why must everything be so fucking correct and nice and sweet? I am none of the above. I am not interested in being any of the above. So please leave me be. I will not take your advice any more. Away away. Leave me to myself.

I would highly appreciate it, if someone else would fuck up today.

I really need a break and some evidence that I’m not the only one doing all the fucking up in this world.

Thank you

Nothing on for tonight?
Miss you guys terribly!

I’m all about the letting go, but I also like the hunt. Hunt for pleasure. Hunt for pain. Understanding and expansion both in the beauty and in the ugliness of life.

I believe that the lowest and hardest places we find give us the deepest insights into our own strenght and soul’s power. We have to be courageous to go there. Have balls to step over the cliff. Leave everybody behind to shake their heads in disbelief and hate us for being too much. Wanting too much.

I love that naked, vulnerable state where everything is open and we push push push ourselves even more. Bleeding, crying, shaking, screaming ourselves into peace of mind.

I get bored when it is too soft … it is too slow…

NO EXCUSES!

xoxo

Luzi Love

Zina, where are you? We have heard nothing from you in ages in here! Were you at the party last night? I came really late (I know, classic Luzi style), but had a blast dancing, drinking, talking, kissing my way through the crowd 😉

Miss you

L

Fuck it – let’s go to SMK and party the shit out of the place!

This Friday. They say it’s baroque theme. Screw that I say it is PARTY theme!!!

Go go go

alright what about tonight? what is wrong with us?? not even for new year? I’m gonna miss you all like crazy and look forward to 2015 with lots of fun and craziness for us all.

Hugs and kisses

Luzi

YEAH – so great that you are all here!!! I’m back! And of course I’ll be there today. I was thinking about bringing a few things and making some guerilla shit today. You know if you are crashing the hospitalward I might just do a quick Luzi-thing. Are you ready for that, Zina? How much fun would that be?? Like in the old times. Uniforms and everything.

Anyways, see you all there! and Red Havoc – you better be there as well!! You know what happens when you disappoint me

a long and lasting
fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck
as in fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck ufuck ufuck ufuck ufuck fuckcufkckfuckfuckufkfuckfukfu kfuk fuck
fuuuuuuuuuck

that was nice
love you already
lips and ass
Miss you like crazy

xoxoxoxoxoxoxox

you might think I’m crazy but I’m not. I always talk to myself in English. Most of you know that I’m not really from UK, but when I’m in here – it just comes naturally in English

Well, also when I’m biking. I think, that to distance myself from the horrible things I say about and to people when I bike. I feel better when in it’s in English. Like in here – it gives a little distance that I really like. Distance to you guys – distance to the world

Ahh, the sadness, the sadness. I’m not too keen to show it, but you know, baby, I feel it too.

The roughness you have is unique, you know I love it. It pushes me and shows me another way. Even though you know, I hate you for it sometimes. You can be so mean to people around you – maybe it is the f… up love you have inside that comes out like that. I believe so. I know you have love – I know you have sadness. You know we all want to look past the meanness, but it can be hard sometimes – it actually hurts, you know.

Well, Rødt chok, as you prefer to call yourself in here … no worries. I love you anyway!

So keep on trucking and we’ll figure things out as we go along. We always do.

Love Luzi

Oh yeah – it’s that time of the year!!! Are you there gang? Are you ready? Don’t tell me all the shitty excuses, I don’t buy them. Let’s just go go go!

I never understood the big problem with the julefrokost. Everybody gets so edgy. I just love them – let loose and party away. Get to know eachother from a new perspective. It doesn’t mean that you have to get really wasted. It just often does… but that’s fine by me. I take it as it comes.

Really gang – I hope I don’t have to start spilling all you old secrets to make you come and julefrokost with me. You know I will. This goes especially for you, Sussie – you are so beautyful when you let go a little. You remember? I know you do 🙂

Well guys – I look forward to seeing you for our annual Christmas trip. You know when and where – don’t make me come and get you.

And BTW – I expect ALL of you to be there!!!

Hey Lovely Pedro

You have always been one of my favorites! You know that don’t you? Everybody is so scared of you and your fire – your spark – your anger. Not me. Maybe I’m used to it, got a lot of yelling in my past. Well you know that. You remember the time when we went down to the train tunnel, stood as close as we could and screamed out heads off when a train passed? A great way to release a little energy, huh? A little frustration …

I miss our night together sometimes – it was crazy times but so full of life and energy. Who cares if anybody understood us. We knew what it was all about.

Love you forever – don’t give up. You know you have it.

Your lovely Luziiiii

Hey SPQ! and welcome in the club. I just wanted to say that I don’t think that you should think too much about things. Never done anything good for me! No, just go for it! without looking back. I’m not sure what life it is you want to jump into, but I say: if you feel a small tinkling in your toe, thinking about it – it is the right place to go!

Jump baby! just jump

S

it’s now or never baby! Do you hear me? You know that it is as I say it is. You often doubt me, but always end up crawling back – head down, eyes to the ground. Asking my forgiveness, when there is no forgiveness to be had. Let me just tell you all a thing or two about Luzi – I have and have never had any reason to trust anybody. The only reason why I’m here on these pages is because I love the space and love the people. They leave me be, let me be as stupid as I am, no judgement no hard feelings. Only love 🙂

That is all I need.

don’t be such a smart ass, Zina. I know you don’t like it, but come on. We are not fooling any body. It’s all about the L O V E. The best one is the difficult one – you know that. I’m not sure that we will ever know.

Here I am, smoking and drinking. I know I’m supposed to be the smiley-perky one, but I’m not sure I can do it. On the onther hand – I think that you guys mostly know me as the loud screaming hand-in-the-air kind of girl. Well who is counting?

Here we go again.

I must admit I love it. It’s the only playing around. The only place to go where I still feel safe. It’s ridicoules – can’t even spell the fucker. You know what it’s like… I promise I wont lie. Hmm it’s time to stop – not sure I can.

Let’s see.

Uhh I can!

Hey guys

What’s up? Long time no see or long time no words… It’s the small things in life that sometime gets to me. I normally see them coming, like a hole in the road, I can step over it – or go around it. But not this time. I went straight in. Don’t know what hit me. I was down there for quite some time. A little bit longer than I intended to. But what the hell No harm done…? Now I’m back, but not quite sure who I am or what I am anymore. I’ve been such a bad ass all my life. I have no idea what to do with all this frailty. I’m in bits and pieces. Like they sing in all the sad songs. Scattered over the floor.

Hmm, good advice anyone? Think at least Katie and Sussie have been there. What about you Frank? Zina?

Well well can’t wait to hear from you.

Luzi low low

Hey guys

What’s up? Long time no see or long time no words… It’s the small things in life that sometime gets to me. I normally see them coming, like a hole in the road, I can step over it – or go around it. But not this time. I went straight in. Don’t know what hit me. I was down there for quite some time. A little bit longer than I intended to. But what the hell No harm done…? Now I’m back, but not quite sure who I am or what I am anymore. I’ve been such a bad ass all my life. I have no idea what to do with all this frailty. I’m in bits and pieces. Like they sing in all the sad songs. Scattered over the floor.

Hmm, good advice anyone? Think at least Katie and Sussie have been there. What about you Frank? Zina?

Well well can’t wait to hear from you.

Luzi low low

I hate the fact that I can’t smoke all the cigarettes in the world at once. you know just to get it over and done with.
I hate the fact that I am bored when I am supposed to be inspired.
I hate the fact that while I am sitting here. everybody else is having a blast – I’m sure!
I hate you for not being here with me
I hate Zina for always being so fucking profound. who really cares?
I hate the rule that says that when I start a new sentence I should write in capital letter – no fucking way José.

I do love the fact that I is in capital…

I hate all pretentious people in the world – including myself, when I get off track.
I hate the paddings in bras – that fake the true nature of our tits.
I hate when I cry over silly television shows.
I hate the fact that I have to leave this house after 3 days on the inside.
I hate the fact that I will have to meet people just because I need milk for my fucking coffee.

Zina – I know you love me. and hate all my hate lists. but really – what’s your problem? they are only there. as a shield against your smile.

I think you have to stop now baby. You know I am here, but the way you’re acting is starting to piss me of and I’m not sure how much more I can stand.

You know what I’m talking about. You refuse to face it, but that is indeed your fucking problem, Zina. You know it will come back and bite you in the ass some day. You think that it’s all OK, but I’m telling you that it’s not. Please don’t fuck with all of us this way, baby. Stop lying to me – to us, to him to her. I hate that.

You should be grown by now – not needing this kind of attention. But it seems your not. Keep fucking with us, and you know what will happen. Like last time – did you like that?

Hmm I didn’t think so

Hey baby, we have been talking about this several times. I don’t know. It doesn’t seem to sink in – does it? I’m really sorry that you keep looking for all this troubles, on the other hand, it’s good entertainment. We have talked, debated, discussed. Hmm, did anything help? Did I help? Ok, let’s say it as it is: You are messing up everybody’s life. I’m not really sure why you have this need. To fuck everything up all the time. I’m not preaching, as I am really not fit for that. But when I see a girl in trouble I must move, baby. Get it together or I will come after you and kick your ass.Are you listening. Enough with sweet talk in here. I am indeed Luzzzziiii Long legs and you know that when it comes down to it – I am not afraid of saying as it is.

Whaooo, Zinaaaaa, You got your own blog. You go girl. Looooove it!I told you to do this long time agooo. Fiiiinallyyyy.I pass by all the time and give you some feeeedback.Huuuugs and KizzzzzzezLucy with the LL